Tonight I had the pleasure of viewing our slides newly transfered to DVD. With tears running down my cheeks I sob at my early years of marriage and children-years long lost. Each picture captures memories long gone foggy and they are fun filled days of endless smiles and joy! My hair is - while dated, it's the current trendy style as is my dress. I was working and able to socialize!! The children are doted upon in each picture with outfits,toys, day trips etc. filled with happy carefree times. There are party pictures and family get togethers-there I am -smiling,having a blast.
Migraines took this joy from me when I turned 36. I am 63 now and I mourn for the joy and carefree unplanned inpulsive activities of the past. Now every activity has a back up plan,every activity usually end in some degree of migraine and I no longer can work. It sucks!!! I try each and everyday to grasp what joy I can eek out and endure the migraine episodes. What choice do I have! Joy I shall get you back, I do not know how but I will!!!! My grandchildren are being robbed of a joyful carefree grandma and I hate that and will do all I can to change this. I again do not know how and my neurologist has said my Migrgaines are now intractable so I will just have to pray for a road to follow to put joy in my self so I can give out the Love all those around me deserve.
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