Tonight I had the pleasure of viewing our slides newly transfered to DVD. With tears running down my cheeks I sob at my early years of marriage and children-years long lost. Each picture captures memories long gone foggy and they are fun filled days of endless smiles and joy! My hair is - while dated, it's the current trendy style as is my dress. I was working and able to socialize!! The children are doted upon in each picture with outfits,toys, day trips etc. filled with happy carefree times. There are party pictures and family get togethers-there I am -smiling,having a blast.
Migraines took this joy from me when I turned 36. I am 63 now and I mourn for the joy and carefree unplanned inpulsive activities of the past. Now every activity has a back up plan,every activity usually end in some degree of migraine and I no longer can work. It sucks!!! I try each and everyday to grasp what joy I can eek out and endure the migraine episodes. What choice do I have! Joy I shall get you back, I do not know how but I will!!!! My grandchildren are being robbed of a joyful carefree grandma and I hate that and will do all I can to change this. I again do not know how and my neurologist has said my Migrgaines are now intractable so I will just have to pray for a road to follow to put joy in my self so I can give out the Love all those around me deserve.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
COLD-COLD-now back to warm!
This is a week I do not wish to repeat-Fl.weather has bounced from our usual pleasant winter temps. to a few days of record lows and is now back to normal. AHH-my poor nervous system went into overload and trigger 5 days straight of migraine attacks. AVOID your triggers the Drs. recommend-gee-don't see how that is possible. Anyway am back on track and look forward to a week of fewer attacks.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
What a Difference a Week Makes!
True to what the pro's say, the cold lasted 7 days! The irony is I had no migraines while I had the cold, but l day out and I get hit with a migraine this morning! Incredible-gee I can either pick constant cold and no migraines or migraines and no cold unless they sneak in!!! Life is full of irony.Had a fun day with 7month old Jack today-he is on a nebulizer-interesting piece of equipment and dispensing of medication for congestion. He was soooo good as he took 2 naps!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Head cold-GO SOMEWHERE ELSE!!!
It is not fair my mind rattles on and on-I am sick enough- so many days -loss to migraine-
Now I have a head cold. Not a big deal in the over all scope of life's challenges but to me it just represents more time loss to illness. So ,I take the over the counter cold remedy,daytime formula, and zonk-out I go-sleeping for the last two days. Perhaps the combinantion with the clonaspam make it more potent! Today I will tough it out-let my eyes burn and run, my head feel like it is at least 3 times it's size and filled with yuck,cough if I talk, ache all over and of course try some old time remedy-chicken soup and rest.
Meanwhile all around me I see tasks to start, and those to complete but must remind myself they are going nowhere. So I resign myself to the couch and endless viewing of Law and Order reruns between my dozzing off. Life is wonderful-so many small challenges thrown in with the bigger ones.
Now I have a head cold. Not a big deal in the over all scope of life's challenges but to me it just represents more time loss to illness. So ,I take the over the counter cold remedy,daytime formula, and zonk-out I go-sleeping for the last two days. Perhaps the combinantion with the clonaspam make it more potent! Today I will tough it out-let my eyes burn and run, my head feel like it is at least 3 times it's size and filled with yuck,cough if I talk, ache all over and of course try some old time remedy-chicken soup and rest.
Meanwhile all around me I see tasks to start, and those to complete but must remind myself they are going nowhere. So I resign myself to the couch and endless viewing of Law and Order reruns between my dozzing off. Life is wonderful-so many small challenges thrown in with the bigger ones.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Starting the Year 2009
Well,the clock hadn't quite struck 12a.m. Jan 1,2009,when I got crushed by a vestibular migraine. Since it was still technically 2008 I hope to have left that type (vertigo etc. shakey "jakey") migraine behind. After a dose of meclazine and night of sleep I spent NY Day 2009 sleeping on and off most of the day. Poor Sal was left to a day of being off and me being sick! Wonderful-another guilt trip for me. Migraine disease is such a fun spoiler, causing so many life changing experiences.
Reviewed some old slides we sent to be put on dvd's. I cried as I saw how happy I was and all the fun things I was doing prior to the onset at 36years old of migraines. I was so different,life was so different,things were done on spur of the moment-no pre-planning-"What if I get sick back-up plan." Gosh I had forgotten those carefree days and the pictures were a smack in the face reality check for me-how much I have had to change to deal with Migraines.
Reviewed some old slides we sent to be put on dvd's. I cried as I saw how happy I was and all the fun things I was doing prior to the onset at 36years old of migraines. I was so different,life was so different,things were done on spur of the moment-no pre-planning-"What if I get sick back-up plan." Gosh I had forgotten those carefree days and the pictures were a smack in the face reality check for me-how much I have had to change to deal with Migraines.
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