Daily Grind of a Migrainer

Each day I open my eyes-peeking sometimes-praying the monster is sleeping!

Somedays I am thrilled for he never wakes up-those days are few!

Somedays he waits to visit me during the course of the day or night

And somedays he awakes with me-such a

Loyal Friend!

UGH! PUKE! UGH!

Summertime and it is HOT HOT HOT

June is here and for Fl. that is Summer-made it through the rainy season-almost daily migraines-the usual. Did get the branded Imitrex and it works as it always did-within 15min. some degree of headpain relief. Can I do a dance or run around the block-no way-it is more like a veg-state but better than hugging the bowl. Still waiting on Disab.-see neuro next month-no change-same old same old-day to day,hour to hour-min. to min. when will the monster strike! Try to not focus on it but it is hard when it is my reality. Actually managed just over an hour shopping the other day but I did pay later in the day.

Almost April-my battle continues.

Well, migraine disease has thrown in another weird challenge for me: HIVES!! Started end of January and after 5 Dr. visits they went away,or I should say are hiding as of last week. It seems they get reeved up with consecutive days of migraine attacks. Just another dopey stupid symtom to deal with along with lately alot of muscle aches. If it gets worse I will consult Dr. but using acetemitphen for now. It is hard to separate what is just normal independent issues and what is connected to my nervous system damage from all the years of migraines.
I did get a disabled tag for the car-I really did not want one but with the Fl.heat I have trouble just getting into the store without popping a migraine or vertigo attack. This should help as last summer the few times I did manage to get out by myself I was often forced to return home sick before I would even get to pick up a few items.

JOY-where have you gone?

Tonight I had the pleasure of viewing our slides newly transfered to DVD. With tears running down my cheeks I sob at my early years of marriage and children-years long lost. Each picture captures memories long gone foggy and they are fun filled days of endless smiles and joy! My hair is - while dated, it's the current trendy style as is my dress. I was working and able to socialize!! The children are doted upon in each picture with outfits,toys, day trips etc. filled with happy carefree times. There are party pictures and family get togethers-there I am -smiling,having a blast.

Migraines took this joy from me when I turned 36. I am 63 now and I mourn for the joy and carefree unplanned inpulsive activities of the past. Now every activity has a back up plan,every activity usually end in some degree of migraine and I no longer can work. It sucks!!! I try each and everyday to grasp what joy I can eek out and endure the migraine episodes. What choice do I have! Joy I shall get you back, I do not know how but I will!!!! My grandchildren are being robbed of a joyful carefree grandma and I hate that and will do all I can to change this. I again do not know how and my neurologist has said my Migrgaines are now intractable so I will just have to pray for a road to follow to put joy in my self so I can give out the Love all those around me deserve.

COLD-COLD-now back to warm!

This is a week I do not wish to repeat-Fl.weather has bounced from our usual pleasant winter temps. to a few days of record lows and is now back to normal. AHH-my poor nervous system went into overload and trigger 5 days straight of migraine attacks. AVOID your triggers the Drs. recommend-gee-don't see how that is possible. Anyway am back on track and look forward to a week of fewer attacks.

What a Difference a Week Makes!

True to what the pro's say, the cold lasted 7 days! The irony is I had no migraines while I had the cold, but l day out and I get hit with a migraine this morning! Incredible-gee I can either pick constant cold and no migraines or migraines and no cold unless they sneak in!!! Life is full of irony.Had a fun day with 7month old Jack today-he is on a nebulizer-interesting piece of equipment and dispensing of medication for congestion. He was soooo good as he took 2 naps!

Head cold-GO SOMEWHERE ELSE!!!

It is not fair my mind rattles on and on-I am sick enough- so many days -loss to migraine-
Now I have a head cold. Not a big deal in the over all scope of life's challenges but to me it just represents more time loss to illness. So ,I take the over the counter cold remedy,daytime formula, and zonk-out I go-sleeping for the last two days. Perhaps the combinantion with the clonaspam make it more potent! Today I will tough it out-let my eyes burn and run, my head feel like it is at least 3 times it's size and filled with yuck,cough if I talk, ache all over and of course try some old time remedy-chicken soup and rest.

Meanwhile all around me I see tasks to start, and those to complete but must remind myself they are going nowhere. So I resign myself to the couch and endless viewing of Law and Order reruns between my dozzing off. Life is wonderful-so many small challenges thrown in with the bigger ones.